When I was alone I feared my life would be gone
But it never occurred to me that I was dying to belong
My past experience left huge scars that will never heal
The cover smile masked under the angry frown much real
Lost in my despair, endless grief towards my mistakes
Up the sky I gazed praying I find heavens gates
What’s this voice in my head telling me to fight and resist
To control the suicidal feeling that doesn’t want me to exist
Confused from this psychological abuse, am not amused
It’s like a game I can’t win but to loose that I shall refuse
Is this a new picture that shows hate in its last beginning?
Clear colors of a lost past and the present of my ending
Could I ever have my life go back to the old way?
When love was what they felt towards my display
« return.