by Mutebi Bwakya
Published on: Oct 2, 2009
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Type: Poetry

This is my story, I'm positive with HIV.
My thoughts filled with visions of places I'll never see,
Places I'll never go, with people I'll never know;
All for the reason that death is knocking at my door.
So I'm feeling quite helpless as I watch my future die.
Even if I wanted to, it would be in vain for me to cry.
Why was I so stupid? How could I have been so careless?
I thought I was the man; at the time I was fearless.
Multiple sexual partners, and sometimes without protection.
I always ran the field without any proper inspection.
How many more are positive? How many more have it?
How many more will be victims of death from this habit?

Indulging to the max; it was great in the beginning.
Funny how death can result from such a great feeling.
My dreams have all died, and I've lost all hope.
This is one situation in which I just can't cope.
My world just ended; to me the sky is falling.
Sentenced to death; I hear voices from the grave calling.
It's best that I depart, it's better that I go.
My family; this is something they should never know.
They would all neglect me and on me turn their backs.
Even after advice I'm still a train off the tracks.

But then I take a look around and see people just like me,
Who still went on to be all they ever wanted to be;
With a positive attitude and a radiant shine.
I wish I had their will; I wish their mind-sets were mine.
Wish I could muster up the courage and live life like they do.
And still keep the faith after all that they've been through.
To still live with happiness, and to live with peace.
With a smile on my face; never a thought of decease.
So I'm just going to smile and put my best foot forward.
I'm going to be a hero; I don't want to be a coward.
I will go global, and I will get support.
I was drowning but now I'm swimming my way back to the boat.
I feel a lot better; the sun's a lot brighter.
I really am the man 'cause I am such a strong fighter.
I've got a different approach of dealing with my emotions.
With a smile, and happiness the vastness of the oceans.

I'm HIV positive with a positive attitude.
To all my role models, I'd like to express my gratitude.
So if you've lost all hope 'cause you've also got the bug,
I suggest you join the group and be part of this great hug.
Life is too short to live it all sad.
Opened up my eyes to see it's not so bad.
I will not surrender, and I will not fear.
Many years from now, I will still be here.
This is such a beautiful day; I feel so free.
You can have HIV but still feel just like me.

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